I Am No One's Robot.

 

I'm not trying to be an extreme feminist here, but this subject just kind of irks me.

I was reading an article online called '10 things a woman should know how to do' and the standards kept getting more and more unreal, we're human, not robots.

My last day at my second job, we were all talking and this one lady was chopping up vegetables. I am extremely sensitive to onions and peppers, and she mentioned "how are you gonna cook for your husband". I jokingly said "I will order takeout" and her relative chimed in and said "oh sweetie no, I cook for my husband all the time and he loves my cooking"

Excuse me? LOL

•  Anyone who knows me, and knows me REALLY well, know that I am def. not the domestic housewife type. I've never been in love, I've never been in a relationship, so what on God's green Earth would make ANYONE think that I plan on getting married? I can't commit to a single nail polish color, let alone a single person that I'd have to look at forever. UGH!

•  I don't cook for others. I just don't. Reason: because I don't care what you like and don't like, as long as I like it, it's fine.

• who said that I had to satisfy someone else? Is learning how to do all of this for the sole purpose of 'keeping our husbands happy'? If so, then that's bullshit. Should I also quit my job, wear an apron and a false smile, standing at the door waiting for my husband to come home so I can take his coat and say "how was your day, dear?" PFFT.

I just have a huge problem with people telling me what I should and shouldn't do, and I think people are really narrow minded and should realize that people are different, it's 2012 FFS and need to accept other people's lifestyle choices.

 

Party Like It's 1932

I quit my 2nd job.

I couldn't take it anymore - the stress, the racing back town to my other job, the ridiculous treatment of the employees, it was extremely stressful and tiring. So I left it.

However, now that I have left that job, there have been severe budget cuts in my life; I have to cut back on online ordering, even if shipping is just 2 dollars. I haven't had to use my card since taking the job, but I still have to save up for a car before school starts.

It's kind of pathetic, but I can't do much - I have to buy extremely cheaply or I can't buy anything, I have to cut back on the 99 cent nail polish, just stop the spending for a while, even though I'm not a HUGE spender, I can't really buy things anymore, even if I need them.

So I do feel broke, I feel like I have no money (even though I have a nice sum in my bank account) again, I'm saving it for my car, until then, things will have to be done cheaply and frugal-ly, almost as if I'm one of those crazy doomsday preppers or like the stock market just crashed and I'm trying to make ends meet. Either way, something has got to be done; something has got to give.

The Mecca Of Crazy Dreams: I Dream Of Guidos

This was by far one of the most awesome and weird dreams I've ever had. For the record, I have never had any affiliation with guidos or guidettes nor do I even find guidos attractive, so for me this was pretty random.

Ok, so basically the dream was Guido: the musical. A bunch of guidos and guidettes got onstage and started rapping and singing about their lifestyle. It was awesome because I was able to think up the lyrics and rhymes up off the top of my head! Shame I don't remember any of the songs.. maybe this dream was my subconscious retaliating against my Glee rant I had the other day?...

HAIRCUT WIN

And the new place to get my hair styled is...*drumroll*

Wal-mart smart style salon!!

I had gotten my hair done there before, once was a relaxer and once was a blowout and they both came out awesome. I gotta admit I had my doubts about going to walmart, because it's such a generic place to get my hair cut. 

However, the experience was, and usually is really good. I walked in and instead of the creepy stares, I was greeted with kindness, and I only had to show the lady the picture of the hairstyle ONCE. That was a really good sign, because in the past my hairstylists would go "wait..lemme see the picture again" but this time she just looked at it and ran with it. Then the other stylist complimented my hair and said that she considered getting her hair cut. It was a wonderful experience and I got the exact cut I wanted. Which was this:

...and it's the exact same haircut (pics coming soon)

But what makes this haircut better is that I really had wanted to chop my hair off for a while. To me, cutting my hair is a major stress reliever, and to me it represents freedom (maybe that's why I had that dream). I was also hesitant to get my hair cut short because I thought that I would look really ugly, and people would mistake me for a dude, but I look better with shorter hair, and maybe...just maybe...I will try to wear makeup???

Bye Quorra Hair :(

 

 

I'm getting another haircut tomorrow because of the thick muppet living on my head. My hair isn't exactly cut like Quorras, but it's about the same length and whenever I'm running my hair does the same exact movements of her hair in the movie, but for me it's too much to handle and I'm pretty low maintenance so I don't want a lot to deal with. Besides, it's just hair!

 

LEAVE THE DEAD ALONE!!

I'm normally a huge fan of shows like "Paranormal Activity", "Ghost Hunters", "Ghost Adventures", anything ghost-y and paranormal-ly, they are interesting because we usually see ghosts portrayed in thriller movies and we KNOW it's not real; it's just special effects. Those ghost hunting t.v. shows go all the way and beyond to prove something and to talk to the dead, and sometimes we can hear them as well.

But for Dio's sakes, man..give it a rest after a while, if the spirit isn't talking to you, don't hound them to death (hound them to death..haha get it? because they're already dead LOLz) like the ghost paparazzi or something. No wonder why the spirits are telling them to LEAVE or knocking down stuff and throwing shit across the room - sometimes I get irritated from being asked "what's wrong" or "how was your day" over and over again.

And sometimes the ghost paparazzi just look downright stupid; here they are, sitting in a room with enough electronics and equipment to put Dexter's Laboratory  to shame, shouting in the dark "HELLO! ARE YOU HERE? IF YOU ARE HERE PLEASE THROW A ROCK, A LAMP, OR A CHAIR AT MY HEAD!"..nothing happens except the fart of a cast member and everyone jumps ship, people flee the room, and the audio is played repededly to prove that the fart, was indeed, the voice of old man Jenkins..

Or they will stand in a doorway, while a moth flies up to one guy's ear. The guy runs like a chicken with it's head cut off swearing that "DUDE! IT JUST TRIED TO ATTACK ME!" And so that we will believe that it's a spirit attacking the dude, not a moth, a clip of the 'floating orb' is played over and over again.

I used to think these shows were really cool, and some still are, especially the ones about unsolved mysteries like Lizzie Borden and historical figures, but most of the time I just sit there feeling stupid because this show is trying to convince us that it's Casper, not their draining sanity due to prolonged exposure to darkness (play amnesia: the dark decent) that's really talking to us..really?

Disclaimer: I DO believe in ghosts; I lived in a haunted house for 8 years of my life and sometimes weird things do happen to us now, but I doubt that I'd be going to radio shack for some ghostbuster equipment any time soon

A Whole World Of No.

That is my hair that I'm talking about.

A few weeks ago I got my hair cut. It was excellent and it only took a few minutes. Once I got home I altered it a bit and it looked better. Whenever I go to hair salons to get my hair done, I show them the style I want, which was this:

Perfect, yes? ok, unfortunately for me, whenever I go to the salon, the stylist always gives me a half- assed response like "well, your hair is a little thicker and shorter in the area where it needs to be longer and ljgdfjgiofdjgbldfjblgfb......" as if my hair is an unruly toddler that the teacher cannot disipline. Right then...so after I left the salon, instead of having hair that looked like that above, my hair looked more like this down below:

Fair enough, and for a few days I did feel good about myself for a while, but then something happened. See, I have hair so thick that it's actually scary, and when I WASH my hair, it just takes on a life of it's own. Being that I have 2 jobs back-to-back, I don't have time to style my hair anymore, and when I wake up my hair looks like this:

What had happened here was, my hair had such a good time at the renaissance festival, that it decided to travel back in time and shape itself into the hairstyle of a friar boy. This is not at all the look I was going for. But it gets worse....because I believe that instead of growing downwards, my hair grows outward and instead of a human being I feel like a fucking anime character. To fully understand what I'm talking about, this picture below is my interpretation of what my hair looks and feels like:

.............................Did I do something to deserve this?


So after deciding for a while, I was gonna go ahead and get my hair cut some more, and I want it cut in a way where I still have my chin length bangs- kind of like a Victoria Beckham haircut thingy.

But I have to find a salon. I have no salon to go to. The salon I went to before is rude, overcrowded, and ghetto. I have a problem with small business salons: I don't want to hear a bunch of loud talking, gossiping, and pausing to talk every second, just do my fucking hair! And the part that pisses me off is that I kept getting the question "you don't want any curls or flips? just straight?" NO! just do it the way I say to do it! I have the picture of the haircut just cut my hair please!

I think my problem is my face. When I see a haircut on someone else it's so pretty, but on me the haircut looks strange and alien-ish. Just for once in my life I would like to be satisfied with the way that I look, because apparently Im having an extremely hard time feeling comfortable with the way I look, and I'm afraid that if I get the haircut I want that it's going to look weird on me, and I'm literally 10 seconds away from pulling a Deb from Empire Records and shaving off my hair, and showing up to work to hear my manager say shock me, shock me, shock me with that deviant behavior when in reality I just want it all gone, and I'd do it too if it didn't make me look like a dude (my face can't handle makeup) soooooo....I'm at a bit of a loss here.  I don't know when I'm gonna have time to even go to a salon, but I am about to just butcher it myself and call it a day, that's for sure.