THANK YOU. For making me the person I am today.

This letter goes out to the guy that woke me up from my days of teenage haze.

Dear Guy,

You may not remember me, and you may not even care, but I do, because in the short time you lived a few houses down from me, my life changed completely.

I remember when you first moved in, and I saw your mom, you, your brother, and your family spending time outside in the summer afternoon. That first time we got off the bus together was terrifying; I sat in the front to make a quick exit, you sat in the back because you were already a socialite. As I walked several paces ahead of you, you called for me and caught up to me, asked me my name, my grade, and you seemed pretty nice. Over time we became really good friends. It may not seem like it, but I was a jealous bitch, and even though we did not date, I had already claimed you as 'mine' while I watched you talk and befriend other girls with furious rage, even going as so far to hate going outside after school for fear that you might be hanging out with that little Puerto Rican girl you often talked to that lived around the corner. I finally thought this is it, this is finally the year I could change my status on myspace (myspace was hot back then) from single to in a relationship, and there were 3 guys I had in mind. So far, you were leading them. 

Things got a little crazy after my best friend at the time snuck on my bus to come over. She knew how I felt about you, and she had a boyfriend at the time, but since she IS better looking, you were interested in her instead. How did I know? She told me on Halloween that you were flirting with her, and by Christmas she didn't even remember who you were! HA! 

That was very disappointing. I had gone out of my way to doll myself up for junior year so that I might meet someone new, and it crashes worse than the Hindenburg. So what was the point? I started wearing black clothing and sweats because I didn't care if I was unappealing or not, people started calling me Emo and Gothic, and I even got my hair cut in that short Lily Allen style: you missed it, Hun; I was living my life post-you.

So even though we were both non-factors to each other, this proves that if I can't find a guy that wont accept me for me, then it's not gonna work out, I will never change for anyone. As for you, aren't in jail or something? so you can't read this, right? good. I think you're suffering enough.

Signed,

D. Fortuna

More Sims Photoshoots: Sea Nymph

Here are one of my pics from my sea nymph photoshoot.

I had more pics but my computer decided to be an ass and corrupt those files. So the ones at my sims blog are the only ones managed to avoid corruption.

Sims 2 80's photoshoot.

This is my 80's photoshoot that I did and posted it on my sims 2 blog. I would post the pics here and everything but I already posted everything over there and its late and I'm tired and ehhhhhh........

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Apocalyptica

I have this strange fascination with apocalyptic stuff.

2 years ago, if you had mentioned anything about an apocalypse of the end of the world I would've flipped my rocker. Remember Y2K and that whole year 2000 thing? that scared the living daylights out of 7 year old me! All those commercials and t.v. shows talking about the power being shut off, stocking up on toilet paper, and when the clock finally reached 12, nothing happened, but I was already in a full fledged panic attack, to the point where my dad had to demonstrate that the power was still working (obviously- we weren't standing there in the dark). Then I remember someone saying that doomsday was on 6/6/06? And now this whole 12/21/12 thing? When I first heard of it, I was really scared and told people not to talk about it, but really, what can you do? save the world?


Anyhow, lately I have found things about worlds ending, Utopian and dystopic societies, sci-fi really fascinating, not fascinating as in ' post pictures from the newspaper on my wall about what may be our eventual fate', but as in movies, media, pictures, etc. Here are some:

• Nero's Welcome Reality concept album

This album eased me into the apocalyptic sub genre. The concept is basically the end of the world, and trying to rebuild it from the ashes. Just look at the album cover- it looks like something from a Stephen Spielberg film.

• Assassins Creed

 When I first found out that Assassins Creed was not really about history, but the protagonists' attempt to stop the solar flare of 2012, I admit I was really reluctant to try it, but a few years later I found myself hooked on the series. The plotline of the modern-day Assassin and trying to save the world can be a bit confusing though, but still, it makes you think, are we the ones saving our world, or are we the ones destroying it? Hmm..

• Mad Max Series

Guilty pleasure: I'll admit that I like the Mad Max series. Although I really don't know what's going on, all I know is that the government fell and the world is now in total anarchy and chaos. I watched Thunderdome when I was a little kid, because I was a big fan of Tina Turner and my mom told me she was in it. And I find it hilarious that Max is wearing that same leather jacket though the whole series. Speaking of Mad Max..

• Borderlands

  

There is no box or catagory or description that can describe the badassery which is the Borderlands series. Borderlands isn't apocalyptic, per se, but it does take place on a dystopic planet called Pandora, and theres loads of guns and violence that will turn even the girliest girl into a testosterone ridden mutant.

• Tank Girl

 

Tank girl is a series of comics drawn by Jamie Hewlett (same guy that draw the Gorillaz too!), and she is basically a kick ass warrior kicking ass in the kick ass future or something. I don't know. There was also a movie adaptation of it, which caught my attention on the television more than the Magic Mike DVD I was trying to watch on my laptop at the same time.

• Fallout Series

 The Fallout video game series is a superior gaming series going all the way back to 1988 when we thought the commies were gonna nuke us. Basically, Fallout follows a path of 'alternate history', meaning what would've happened if we had lost WWII or been nuked in the 50's like people thought we were. So now the world's water supply has radiation, there are mutated people aaaaaannnnnd everyone is fucking insane. Sounds like fun.

• Akira

 

 Although I've never actually SEEN this movie or read the manga, I really like the plotline, and the whole Neo-Tokyo backdrop is easy to visualize since, Tokyo is already kind of Neo-Toyko, right? Not make sense? hmmm? ABCDEFG?