Workout death, My dream guy, and Varsity Fashion

Three different posts at the same damn time cuz im sleeeepeeehhh wooooooo!!!!

Like I stated previously, I am trying to get into better shape; my clothes are always slipping off of me and in a way I kind of feel sorry for myself when that happens, kind of like when you see a small child with clothes too big or a tall kids with pants too short for him, THAT kind of sorry. So I'm gonna bulk up by starting with my ass. My stomach is flat already so we'll leave that alone for a while, but the bottom needs to be 20 years old, not pre-pubescent boy bottom. I found this website called The Haute Bunny, where all these different workout tips are placed and posted.

 

 

The entire routine is quick, and it doesn't take long, so I decided to give it a try beforer work. Less than 10 minutes later I had to go outside in the 30 degree weather just too cool off. I did this workout twice today and I can really feel it in my buns. This better be good.

 

 

My dream guy

 

I'm not really the one for sappy romance stories. In high school, I told myself all the time that this moment, right here, right now, I might finally meet "the one" who sweeps me off my feet. That's not to say that I don't think love doesn't exist, it does..but growing up I never witnessed love: my parents hated each other so much that it was the norm and like 'meh' to me, loved ones either died, went crazy, lost it, divorced, etc, just something always happening.

 

To me the perfect guy wouldn't be good looks and an awesome body, it would be someone who makes me laugh and can put up with my sarcasm, weird sense of humor, and cray-cray mood swings. But then again, I want a GUY, when I hold his hand, I don't want it to feel like mine, I want it to feel manly, I don't want him to smell like roses, I want that guy smell, and most of all, I don't want him to be like "ok,  ok, ok, ok," to everything I say, I don't want a robot. But I am just a teeny bit shallow, I have to be able to look you in the face.

 

 

 

varsity fashion

 

I don't know if it was because of the recent issue of NYLON magazine or what, but I now have this strange facination with varsity fashion, like that vintage stuff that was worn in high schools and to the sock hops in good ol' retro America.

 

Betty Sue and Wally are going to the diner tonight to eat burgers, share milkshakes, and maybe, they'll hold hands!!

Sally Jean in the back thinks Wally is pretty keen, too. He IS pretty keen,  he has what we of the future call Swag. Look at him, flipped hair, hands in his jeans, Betty Sue, you better hold that hand tight!

 

I already have a letterman jacket that I boughtat forever 21 last summer, but it's too small and the pockets zip and its more like a small jacket instead of a protective jacket that I wanted. My dad has a jacket like that with the chicago bulls logo on the sleeves, but it's been years since I've seen that jacket. Oh well. But what I REALLY want is one of those sweaters with the 'unknown letter' as in, 'what does that stand for?'

 

 

WantWantWantWantWant!!!!!

 



 

 

 

2013 Things-I-Want-To-Do

According to the Mayan calandar, we all will meet our demise next Friday. But just in case that doesn't work out, I have a list of things I wish to actually accomplish in 2013. 

I wouldn't actually call them goals, because goals are defined as "the result or achievement toward which effort is directed."

Things-I-Want-To-Do are defined as "Things I'm gonna attempt to do and if they don't work out then fuck it."

 

Because, don't get me wrong, I set goals this year, and I have accomplished them with great sucess, but the pressure to achieve them was too much, and I placed a bunch of stress on myself.

 

So here are the list I have so far of the things I want to do in 2013 and if they don't work out then fuck it:

 

 

Join a Gym

 

This is one of those new years resolutions that people make, but I'm dead serious; there's a gym up the street that has everything, and I'm scrawny and I want that beach bod. If I can accomplish this, it means that I did well enough to conquer my laziness!

 

 

Travel to Canada

 

One of my older siblings lives a few miles away from the US/Canadian border, and they make trips there frequently. The only thing is I have to get a passport to get into the country. I'm not sure whether I want to go to Montreal (which is closer, and more French) in Quebec, or Toronto, which is..Toronto. I don't really know much about Canada, because here in America, we don't really care (sorry Canadians!), in fact, we don't see Canada as Canada; Anywhere north of the US is usually considered oblivion.

 

 

Celebrate my 21st Birthday in Style

 

My 20th birthday was depressing on purpose. I knew that I was leaving those dreaded teenage years behind, but when I look at myself and look at my life, I looked like a 16 year old, I lived like a 13 year old - boy that is, and I felt like an 86 year old. I didn't even want to go out to eat or anything. Since I am turning the legal drinking age in '13, I am gonna get wasted, which were originally NOT my intentions, but my new motto for '13 is "fuck it", so not only will I get wasted, I am gonna get chocolate-wasted. My sister wanted us to all fly to vegas and celebrate, but I am thinking of heading back to New Orleans and enjoy it non-family vacation style this time, yep, I am gonna go to the Zydeco clubs and dance with a drink in one hand and...well I can't dance with 2 drinks.

 

FINALLY embrace my natural hair.

 

This one shouldn't be a problem. I have had braids in my hair for 5 months now with a break in between, and I think my hair is making progress, I just need to take better care of it.

 

Get a Tattoo and A Piercing

 

Hell, why not?

 

Embrace the Recession

 

Where the hell have I been while my bank account was being depleted? I'm gonna start extreme couponing instead of looking at the paper and letting my dogs pee on it. And guess what else, there are thrift stores around town where the clothes are $.25 to $1.50 during the week, and they still have the tags on them, I figured I could start a blog about what I find in the thrift stores and compare them to that expensive shit in the magazines, and millions of people will read that blog just like they read this one! YAY!!



 

- Remember, you can't spell sassy without ASS.!

THANK YOU. For making me the person I am today.

This letter goes out to the guy that woke me up from my days of teenage haze.

Dear Guy,

You may not remember me, and you may not even care, but I do, because in the short time you lived a few houses down from me, my life changed completely.

I remember when you first moved in, and I saw your mom, you, your brother, and your family spending time outside in the summer afternoon. That first time we got off the bus together was terrifying; I sat in the front to make a quick exit, you sat in the back because you were already a socialite. As I walked several paces ahead of you, you called for me and caught up to me, asked me my name, my grade, and you seemed pretty nice. Over time we became really good friends. It may not seem like it, but I was a jealous bitch, and even though we did not date, I had already claimed you as 'mine' while I watched you talk and befriend other girls with furious rage, even going as so far to hate going outside after school for fear that you might be hanging out with that little Puerto Rican girl you often talked to that lived around the corner. I finally thought this is it, this is finally the year I could change my status on myspace (myspace was hot back then) from single to in a relationship, and there were 3 guys I had in mind. So far, you were leading them. 

Things got a little crazy after my best friend at the time snuck on my bus to come over. She knew how I felt about you, and she had a boyfriend at the time, but since she IS better looking, you were interested in her instead. How did I know? She told me on Halloween that you were flirting with her, and by Christmas she didn't even remember who you were! HA! 

That was very disappointing. I had gone out of my way to doll myself up for junior year so that I might meet someone new, and it crashes worse than the Hindenburg. So what was the point? I started wearing black clothing and sweats because I didn't care if I was unappealing or not, people started calling me Emo and Gothic, and I even got my hair cut in that short Lily Allen style: you missed it, Hun; I was living my life post-you.

So even though we were both non-factors to each other, this proves that if I can't find a guy that wont accept me for me, then it's not gonna work out, I will never change for anyone. As for you, aren't in jail or something? so you can't read this, right? good. I think you're suffering enough.

Signed,

D. Fortuna

More Sims Photoshoots: Sea Nymph

Here are one of my pics from my sea nymph photoshoot.

I had more pics but my computer decided to be an ass and corrupt those files. So the ones at my sims blog are the only ones managed to avoid corruption.

Sims 2 80's photoshoot.

This is my 80's photoshoot that I did and posted it on my sims 2 blog. I would post the pics here and everything but I already posted everything over there and its late and I'm tired and ehhhhhh........

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Apocalyptica

I have this strange fascination with apocalyptic stuff.

2 years ago, if you had mentioned anything about an apocalypse of the end of the world I would've flipped my rocker. Remember Y2K and that whole year 2000 thing? that scared the living daylights out of 7 year old me! All those commercials and t.v. shows talking about the power being shut off, stocking up on toilet paper, and when the clock finally reached 12, nothing happened, but I was already in a full fledged panic attack, to the point where my dad had to demonstrate that the power was still working (obviously- we weren't standing there in the dark). Then I remember someone saying that doomsday was on 6/6/06? And now this whole 12/21/12 thing? When I first heard of it, I was really scared and told people not to talk about it, but really, what can you do? save the world?


Anyhow, lately I have found things about worlds ending, Utopian and dystopic societies, sci-fi really fascinating, not fascinating as in ' post pictures from the newspaper on my wall about what may be our eventual fate', but as in movies, media, pictures, etc. Here are some:

• Nero's Welcome Reality concept album

This album eased me into the apocalyptic sub genre. The concept is basically the end of the world, and trying to rebuild it from the ashes. Just look at the album cover- it looks like something from a Stephen Spielberg film.

• Assassins Creed

 When I first found out that Assassins Creed was not really about history, but the protagonists' attempt to stop the solar flare of 2012, I admit I was really reluctant to try it, but a few years later I found myself hooked on the series. The plotline of the modern-day Assassin and trying to save the world can be a bit confusing though, but still, it makes you think, are we the ones saving our world, or are we the ones destroying it? Hmm..

• Mad Max Series

Guilty pleasure: I'll admit that I like the Mad Max series. Although I really don't know what's going on, all I know is that the government fell and the world is now in total anarchy and chaos. I watched Thunderdome when I was a little kid, because I was a big fan of Tina Turner and my mom told me she was in it. And I find it hilarious that Max is wearing that same leather jacket though the whole series. Speaking of Mad Max..

• Borderlands

  

There is no box or catagory or description that can describe the badassery which is the Borderlands series. Borderlands isn't apocalyptic, per se, but it does take place on a dystopic planet called Pandora, and theres loads of guns and violence that will turn even the girliest girl into a testosterone ridden mutant.

• Tank Girl

 

Tank girl is a series of comics drawn by Jamie Hewlett (same guy that draw the Gorillaz too!), and she is basically a kick ass warrior kicking ass in the kick ass future or something. I don't know. There was also a movie adaptation of it, which caught my attention on the television more than the Magic Mike DVD I was trying to watch on my laptop at the same time.

• Fallout Series

 The Fallout video game series is a superior gaming series going all the way back to 1988 when we thought the commies were gonna nuke us. Basically, Fallout follows a path of 'alternate history', meaning what would've happened if we had lost WWII or been nuked in the 50's like people thought we were. So now the world's water supply has radiation, there are mutated people aaaaaannnnnd everyone is fucking insane. Sounds like fun.

• Akira

 

 Although I've never actually SEEN this movie or read the manga, I really like the plotline, and the whole Neo-Tokyo backdrop is easy to visualize since, Tokyo is already kind of Neo-Toyko, right? Not make sense? hmmm? ABCDEFG?

Medieval Daze

I am perhaps going through another weird phase, and this one is medieval life stuff, things..

It all started with the renaissance faire.

To be honest, I think the renaissance and medieval times were totally separate from each other weren't they? The medieval era was considered the 'dark ages', which was basically western European society after the fall of the Roman empire. Many people were illiterate, barbarians and Germanic tribes raided villages frequently, and there was a plague that wiped out half of the population. There were the middle ages, and then there were the high middle ages, which is when things started to get better, namely, because the crusades gave people something to do.

The Renaissance is when people remembered that they had a brain, so the pursuit of knowledge, the arts, and other cool stuff that were around during the Roman empire times resurfaced. These are the "Romeo and Juliet" days, basically.

Anyway, the Renn Faire was very awesome, and I learned that it was a simpler way of life. People made their own things, religion was a very touchy subject, and humor was...interesting.

Then came Skyrim...ohhh Skyrim.
I thought that games about dragons and swords were for old school nerds, not the case when playing Skyrim. Any game where I am considered a 'dragonborn' is kick ass in my opinion. Now, speaking of dragonborns..

 

I hate being left out of the loop, and I always am. So I decided to find out what all the commotion was with this show. Willing or not, I can now see why this series has a huge fanbase.

I'm not gonna go into detail, maybe on another blog post, but there's nudity, blooshed, death, LOADS of death, and blondes, loads of blondes.

Skyrim actually eased me into this show, because I think it's actually similar in terms of location and city names, plus the mannerisms and customs are the same, but the show keeps me hooked in the most unusual way possible.

Shit happens. And in real life, it does happen. But on television and in movies, it doesn't. Most shows and movies follow the same format: 

Beginning - rising action- climax- falling action- conclusion. Good guys win, happy ending. Not exactly the case with G.O.T; for anyone interested in watching, just know that there will be lots of "NOOOOOOOO!!!" moments, because so far evil has prevailed. Even though the show is a fantasy drama action whatever, the plotlines are very down-to-earth, for example: someone could be of royal blood one minute, then the next their whole family is executed, then the next minute someone could rule over an entire kingdom and all is well, right? Nope, because in another minute that entire kingdom could be burned down, and it goes in a cycle, much like in real life.

I always thought that the medieval times were kind of lame, and the only people interested in them were those nerds who LARP and play dungeons and dragons but they are, in fact, really cool.

Things I Could Be Doing If I Had More Time To Do Things

When I was young..

I had time, but did not know it

I had beauty, but did not feel it

I had peace, but did not want it.

Dealing with the overwhelming course work of college, the stressfulness of dealing with people at school and on the brink of another job, I wont have any more time for myself. I remember just this time last year and a mere few months ago I had enough money in my bank account to do just about whatever I wanted and buy whatever I needed to last me for a while, because I was so BORED. Fast forward to now, and I'm exhausted. It's kinda my fault, because I was trying to keep up with the Joneses of my age and go to college, so I had to get a car. Also, I am one of those unfortunate individuals who have to pay for the stuff they have and work at a job for it, so me not really having the time to spend at the school like the proffessors want us to really sucks. I mean, if anything, the impression that college is giving me right now, is that professors do not give an actual fuck if you have any other classes or a job or what, this class that you're in right now is the only thing on earth that is important and if you can't drive all the way downtown to see some crappy art exhibit for a grade because you have a meeting at work that you HAVE to attend to, then it's your fault. All your fault. 

Gosh. This ranting. Anyway, back to the regular scheduled programme.

There are things that I wish I could do right now. Video games are my world, but I can easily get addicted, and once I try to pry myself away from them, I can't stop thinking about how I can't wait to play them again. So here is a list of things that I feel like I could be doing if I had more time on my hands.

Knitting funky sweaters

Back in the good ol' fashioned days of high school, I went through several phases. One of those phases was an obsession with 80's style clothing. Nowandays, I kind of ditched the 80's look, but have kept the obsession for sweaters, sweatshirts, etc. I want to make my own sweaters and sell them or something, y'know?

Hitting The Gym

I'm shrimpy, I'm waify, I need to bulk up and get people to take me seriously. Also, it has great health benefits, and I would like to fit into my clothing sometimes without it sliding off; that would be great as well.

Traveling

I used to be an adventurer like you, then I took an arrow to the knee says the random guards around Skyrim. In real life, I traveled, I traveled to a lot of places because I had time on my hands, money just sitting there, and a desire to get away. I have the opportunity to go to NY and stay with my sis for Christmas, go to the Caribbean, or Las Vegas, yet real life is getting in the way, and I have to stay where I am because of...responsibilities..ew. I loved to travel, it IS like going on an adventure, sadly, I can't go on these adventures anymore, because instead of an arrow to the knee, I took a decrease to the bank account.

Attending Conventions

And just when the bucket list is halfway complete, I miss this one by a long shot. Dragon Con, Momo Con, Anime Weekend Atlanta, are just some of the things I can't do because not only do I not have time, I don't have a posse. One nerd is a loser, a gang of nerds make IT students.

Going to the Drunken Unicorn

 

Living in a city where hiphop, R&B, and Country are the dominating exports of music, it's really hard to find a scene that's a blend of everything underground. I think that attending shows at the drunken unicorn would be fun and cool (and a chance to see where the Georgia hipsters come to play).

Slaying Dragons 

By the end of 2012, the world is prophesized to be devoured by Alduin, a dragon who was killed in the medieval times that has come back to life, resurrecting other dragons. Today, dragons are among one of the most rising threats in the world, but due to the financial crisis, we can't fund an army to go out and fight these dragons, if I had time, I would bulk up the courage to go do it myself, after all, my dog has already killed those little baby dragons always crawling around on the porch.

Sleeping

In Sociology, I learned about different types of people. There are people who have goals and the means to achieve them, the people who have goals but no means, the people who have means but no goals, people who have neither, and the rebels. I would either fall into the rebel catagory, or someone with means and no goals. I miss sleeping in on weekends, mornings, afternoons, etc. A lack of proper sleep makes me the equivalent of a car with a dying battery. 

Here is a message for everyone: trying to make a slacker work is fail, trying to motivate a slacker is fail, trying to turn a slacker into an actual person will never work, all we'll do is bitch and complain. Oh well, there's always the break periods I guess.

Pinterest

Ok, first of all, is it pronounced Pin-ter-est, Pin-trest or Pine-trest? because for the longest time I had been typing Pinetrest into my browser and nothing but error messages came up.

Anyway, pintrest is...well, I don't know what it really is, but it's really cool, and basically people upload pictures of things and you can save, or pin them, if you like. I really like this site because this is what I've always done in the first place: google pictures of hairstyles, outfits, or whatever pieces of art, and saved them. So here I am, joining the pintrest crusade, because I'm really bored with tumblr and I don't have enough friends to use instagram.

Moar complaining about college....

And here is why:

When I was in high school I had dreams of what I wanted to do, but unfortunately you have to be smart to do them. By the time I had reached senior year I had become an expert in procrastination and slacked off until the very end. Why? it wasn't because I was lazy, it was because I felt like it was pointless, and I was right. Here are several reasons I think college blows:

• Fate. I am not supposed to be there. When I finished HS I actually got into college, but due to financial issues and other circumstances I couldn't attend. So when I moved out to Arizona, I had plans to get a job and go to a community college to start off. Well so much for community college, who kept saying that I needed to fax some papers back and forth for me to qualify for financial aid, so many times that I actually missed the semester and was not able to attend. I had given up on going until last summer when I moved back to Georgia, and there were several colleges I wanted to go to, but I had no money, no car, and I am one of those unlucky few who actually have to support myself, so I couldn't go to a college I actually wanted. Instead, I ended up settling for a wannabe university. I couldn't go because I didn't have a car. Ok, so now I have a car, but I can't get the right classes because I'm a retard in mathmatics, ok, so that doesn't matter, I can just take regular classes and math0099, no big, then I have to attend an ALL DAY session of bear essentials, but wait, my financial aid hasn't kicked in...fast forward to 2 days later, your financial aid has been "rewarded", and now that you have a car, and almost in college, you can't go because you owe $ 25,000 and the only way you wont owe all that money is to take out loans or become a full time student= 4 classes. Well, it's too late to take out any loans! so you gotta take those classes. So now we go to school, ok, let's have some more things happen to us like: computer crashing, traffic, no time because of work, not having a macbook, and the ultimate CAR BATTERY FAILURE.

•  My math class doesn't even count towards my GPA which means that I don't even need to be there, and it's not even a class, everything is online, so I can do the work at home, right? WRONG, your browser does not have the supported plugins to access this page.

• Remember the part about me being stupid? well remember this kiddies, if you are good in math, you can become anything and everything and become whatever you want, but if you are good at things that I am good at, such as nothing, there are no options for you. My major is digital media: I wanted to work in video gaming and/or animation and all that stuff, but I am constantly reminded that the job market is hard, and I probably wont find a job in my major, which will lead to me working retail for the rest of my life.

• I wanted to be around people my own age. I don't have any friends. So the original plan was, get a room on campus, meet friends, don't be lonely, right? Nah...my financial aid didn't pay for loans, so I am just a regular ol' commuter. And I'm still socially stunted, I don't know how to make friends anymore, and I'm not charismatic either, so I've just always avoided people.

• I have been offered another job. There are bills to pay, things I have to do but can't afford it, I am contemplating the offer on this second job, but on my days off I use at least an hour to finish my homework and projects, if I take this second job, I will be exhausted to no extent, which will lead to my return to the ER, and another hospital bill that I can't afford to pay, but probably COULD if I took this second job..

• WTFlectures? It doesn't feel like I'm in school, it feels like I'm in some sort of rehab facility. The assignments in my classes consist of questions like "how do you feel about that? what do you think about that? what does this picture make you think?" Here is a little known fact about me: I have no opinion on things I don't feel strongly about, but that answer wont do me any justice, will it?

• The people. These people suck. 

• Commuting. To get to school from my house takes 30 minutes of a hectic drive. There's traffic and either ridiculously slow drivers, ridiculously aggressive drivers, and ridiculous amounts of police. I can never find a place to park, so I started parking out by the dorms, but walking to and from my car by the dorms felt like walking by a large group of winos downtown. So now I park on the gravel lot in the front of the school which feel like hell on my tires. Also, I don't have air conditioning, so when I get to my classes I smell like a rotting bag of ham.

It seems like I'm complaining, and I feel like I'm just being pissy, since I DID suffer two years of thinking that I wouldn't get anywhere in life unless I went to college, but I am starting to think that all these things happening to me were probably signs, telling me not to go. I seem ungrateful for everything that has happened to me, I know, but overall, I am feeling a huge sense of discouragement and let-down, so I'm really contemplating on whether I did the right thing or not. People say it will pay-off in the long run, but I think it's gonna end up being a LOOONNNG run. And yet I still go...

My Borderlands 2 Review and Guilt.

First things first, I am not a FPS type of gal. I doln't care about COD and all its avengers, I really don't understand Halo, and I'm just not too fond of anything else that resembles a scenario of which "this is what it would be like if you were drafted into the military!"

In some cases, I am willing to put my motives aside and try one of these FPS games, because they have a sort of significant back-story behind them. One example would be Fallout 3, which has a plot so engrossing that it should be made into a feature-length film.

Borderlands 2 is also one of these games. At first, I wasn't too sure about trying this game. Even though the cover art is what made me interested in the first place, the whole idea of playing a FPS made me hesitate, but when I read the plotline on wikipedia,  I figured, ehh what the hell. Here is the plot copypasta'd from wiki:

Five years have passed since the events of Borderlands, when vault hunters exposed the secrets of the Eridian Vault. A man called Handsome Jack has taken credit for the vault hunters' actions and claimed the wealth of the Vault, allowing him to take over the Hyperion Corporation and effectively gain dominion over Pandora. Promising to clean the lawless planet up, Handsome Jack embarks on a campaign to exterminate Pandora's existing colonist population and industrialize the planet. The main symbol of Handsome Jack's rule is a massive supply base built in the shape of an "H" on Pandora's moon. The base is always visible, and can deploy Hyperion forces to any point on Pandora. Borderlands 2 begins with the player fighting to the death to win a priceless cache of loot in a gladiatorial tournament run by Handsome Jack for his personal amusement. The player succeeds and gains notoriety, but Handsome Jack sees this as a threat to his popularity with the people. At the tournament's end he denies the reward and leaves the player for dead in a tundra. The mysterious Guardian Angel from the first game then contacts the player and explains that Handsome Jack must be killed, directing the player to rescue the four original vault hunters from Hyperion's clutches to accomplish this. Although Jack's full intentions are unknown, part of his plan involves finding an ancient evil named "The Warrior" that is located somewhere on Pandora.

 
See? interesting, huh? In the beginning, I wasn't really looking forward to playing this game (since I had already bought it, I felt obligated to play it), but I figured, hey, if it doesn't work out, I can always return it, right?


Wrong. This game isn't going anywhere. People claim that this game is addictive, and I'll tell you why: When I first began the game, I breezed through the first few parts so fast that I became confident in my abilities to conquer any enemy at any cost. At one point I became so engrossed in the game that I started yelling "come at me, bro!" to my television screen. Now here is where you realize that the game has got you. At one point I died, and instead of re-spawning near where I left off, somehow I re-spawned all the way on the other side of the town. For at least 3 minutes I felt like I was being jadded, and wondering why I was transported into a vast wasteland instead of where my save point was, only to find out that I WAS near my save point, but the camera was angled to make me think that I was supposed to go in the opposite direction. HAHA funny, ok, I see what you did there. Even though I WAS mad, I had realized that if I weren't so damn into this game at the moment, I would have just shut off my Xbox and went to bed.
This game isn't without its faults, though; the boss fights are too much for tv. Borderlands 2 is clearly not a game welcoming to newcomers. The boss fights are really difficult and are time consuming, please be expected to die at lease 10 times during this round. I find that cowering in a corner and waiting until the enemy comes to you easier than running into combat head-on. The enemies in this game are brutal, and they level up every time you level up. The amount of violence and hostility in this game is so epic it makes the wasteland in the Fallout series look like the fucking garden of Eden.

Overall, I really, really like this game, a little more than I should, because like I said before, I don't play FPS, they SUCK, and normally they lack plotline, but this game is better than most FPS in my opinion. Yeah there's enemies, and there's parts where you wont know what the hell is going on, but the game wont let you down, there are marker points on your map, a cute little robot named claptrap whom I will defend at all costs, and GUNNNSSS, loads and loads of guns.

Now here is the guilt. I kinda gave up on Borderlands 1. I did. As I played through several days of Skyrim, Borderlands just sat there collecting dust, because I had played through it and found myself frustrated at the fact that it just seemed to throw you into the game, whereas Borderlands 2 eases you into it. I recommend this game for anyone

AC3 Prep

In a few days, I will start the Assassins Creed 3 prep. What's that? well it's when a game comes out, you play each sequel in order until you get to the last one, then right as you get to the ending, save it, and wait for the next installment in the series to come out. Once it comes out, you continue where you left off on the last game, and THEN start the new game.

Here's what I did last year:
in honor of Assassins Creed Revelations, I played and beat AC1 and AC2, played halfway through brotherhood and once I got near the ending I saved it, waited until ACR came out, then after I got home, I continued where I left off with Brotherhood, and once I got to the ending, I was able to pick up where I left off by starting revelations.

Well, this year Assassins Creed 3 is coming out, and again, I will be playing through AC 1, 2, Brotherhood, respectively. Once I get to Revelations, I will save the game near the ending, and once I get the game on October 30th, I will pick up where I left off on Revelations, and then start AC3. Best remedy for cliffhangers ever.

Hipsters.

the Hipster is probably the counter-culture of this generation, or maybe cybergoth, IDK, but what people DON'T know is that there are many different types of hipsters:

(NOTE: These are just my observations)

The American hipster represent those young adults straight out of college (or in college) who give off the impression that they have no money, no food, and barely any central air conditioning, which is why they tend to dress in a very contradictory fashion: sweaters, sweatshirts, hoodies, with rolled up jeans, or crop-tops with winter ugg boots. Even though they give off the impression that they don't care, they really do care; they care about the trust fund money that they are currently spending on that one bedroom apartment in Brooklyn, the money they are spending on shirts of horses from urban outfitters, and the money that it takes to be ironic. Yes sir, the American hipster is all about irony: caring about looking like you don't care.

British hipsters have a sort of elegance about them. Due to the unfortunate geographical location, the weather is normally depicted as partly cloudy, partly cloudy, partly cloudy...so this hipster knows that they need to look stylish but stay at a reasonable body temperature as well, so most of these outfits consist of leggings under shorts, big blazers, throwbacks to the new wave subcultures, and a look reminiscent of a character from the nutcracker, this hipster, while successfully appearing stylish, also fails to match. This hipster is all about being quirky: cute, fun, and lacking the ability to match clothes like a 6 year old picking out their own outfits for the first time.

The Japanese hipsters' look is reminiscent of their favorite tv show, band, lifestyle, cartoon characters, etc. While this may not be the hipster look we are all used to, this look, for Japanese society, does give off the impression that they aren't putting forth that much effort into their appearances. This look is often heavily copied.

Due to the ridiculous temperature, (chilly in the morning, hot in the day, moist at night), this Georgia hipster is prepared to face any type of weather. The Georgia hipster is most likely an out-of-townee, coming here to attend art college and eat at local sandwich shops in newly gentrified neighborhoods. The Georgia hipster normally gets their clothing from unknown boutiques, attends many shows of local indie rockers, and has a disdain for college football. This hipster can be described as beatnik: the only reason they exist is because of the rising art scene.

Lets play a game: can you guess which is which??

Oh they're everywhere...

'Tis Balls.

I changed the blog name again. So I have to post this again.

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A Short Rant About Religion.

A touchy subject indeed, but I just think it's awkward to bring up religion when you first meet someone. I don't think it's appropriate.

People have different beliefs, and just because they're different from yours, that doesn't mean they're bad, that just means they do things another way than you do. I can't tell you how many discussions I've gotten in where people told me I was wrong or I wasn't supposed to worship that way. For starters, I'm a catholic, ok? Which means that our way of prayer is normally different from baptists, protestants, Lutheran, etc. But because our way is different from normal, straightforward christians, I have been told that it wasn't appropriate because we worship idols or something?First of all, WTF, Idols? Like Easter Island heads or something? I don't worship idols, I mean yeah, we have the saints and the virgins, but in my opinion God would be the superior above them, right? so what's the big deal?

Another reason why religious people get on my nerves is because they take forever to get to the point. They have to explain EVERYTHING. For an example, I will admit, at one point in my life I was an atheist. People would ask me about religion, and I would just tell them I was an atheist. I have no problem telling people my point of view, there's no point in lying, and I know you're hurt because I don't want to participate in your religion club, but one time in high school this girl (who turned out to be a member of the Junior Christians Alliance or whatever it was called) asked me if I believed in God, and I told her no..BRO, before I knew it, the teacher, that girl, and some guy who looked like he had just gotten out of juvie all tried to give me some sort of religious intervention - which really didn't help, I was ready for them to burn me at the stake or hang me for practicing witchcraft or something. It's just a waste of time, if I just believe in something else, then I just believe in something else, now leave me alone.

It just gets me how people always want to change someone's beliefs. I mean, if the person is going through hell then ok, show them the path or whatever, but if someone is just fine and dandy, leave them alone. And stop peddling religion like it's a brand of girl scout cookies - it's greedy. Like I cannot even explain how many times I am at work and a customer just wants to stop and have a conversation about religion:

Me: Hi! how are you?

Customer: Hello

ok, that's normal, but when they start pulling this stuff right here:

Customer: have you heard the word of God today? 

Do you know Jesus?

I'm here to tell you about it.

What IS this? The fucking crusades or something?

I'm not gonna bash here, their intentions are good and they mean well, but I just can't help thinking of this whenever conversations like this appear:

 templars!!

Disclaimer: I have nothing against any religion or anything, to me different beliefs are what make the world and cultures unique, but when that whole "my religion is better that yours" stuff starts popping up, it makes me feel like who are you to tell us what to do with our lives?

Plus, like I said before, my family is catholic, I was raised catholic, my mom went to catholic school, but I have my own beliefs. To be honest here, religion scares me. I just feel like whatever you do, no matter what, it's wrong and you will be punished for it, so while I have attempted to embrace religion because LOL..things do not go as planned for me most of the time, it's just really really uncomfortable. Does the effort at least count?

College Bum.

I'm just gonna sum up my college experience so far, because if I know life (and believe me, I know life), this is how things are always gonna be.

For one thing, since housing is expensive, and I failed to take out student loans, I have to commute back and forth, which is a bitch because I don't like driving that much, and parking on campus is hell, so I probably most likely illegally park in the student housing parking lot, but I have no other options.

Due to paranoia and bad timing I always arrive on campus early, which means I have nothing to do. I used to know some people who went there;I kinda feel like the campus bum in a way, I clean myself in the bathrooms whenever I feel dirty, and I sleep in my car whenever I'm tired.  Unfortunately I can't find anyone I used to know or anyone to hang out with, so I try to find a quiet space where I can sit and use my laptop in peace.

What I've noticed is that this is just like a regular college - dorms, guys stereotypically playing shirtless Frisbee on the green, people hanging out, but for me it's just awkward, I legit don't have anyone to talk to, so I just sit in a building somewhere and look around. What I've also noticed is that there is a disturbing amount of cigarette smokers, like every other person on campus has a cigarette in their hand, like WTF.

There are a lot of really good looking guys, and by good looking I mean I-only-thought-these-type-of-guys-existed-in-the-movies type of guys. It would help if I was equally hot so I would have a chance, but it is whatever.

So far my classes are ok, my sociology class is my favorite so far, because we talk about people and basically stuff I rant about on this blog, and my first assignment is easy- stand in a crowded place and observe. Easy, no?

I have mixed feelings about college. I feel like I'm fully missing out on the college experience because of being a commuter and my socially retarded-ness; It's kind of like being a clown at a child's birthday party..you don't really get to enjoy the party, you just make a few appearances from time to time. I like to compare it to this poster that I used to have:

 

So much for study buddies. Maybe I'll find myself in a situation where I find a club or a study group and we end up hanging out..

That's better.

 Yet even though I may seem like I'm really ungrateful, I really can't complain. I've have been trying to get to college for 2 years now, and now that I'm here I can try to learn from my slacker mistakes that I learned from in high school. Just try to pass please.

First Week Of College: First Day

So I am EXHAUSTED.

Today was a full-on day. I had to go up to the school at 11am this morning, and between updating my classes, verifying my financial aid, and RE-verifying my financial aid, it took a while. However, I got everything done, and I went to my first class.

Today I had math 0099, which is the pre-college math class they put people in when their math SATs are subpar. I'll admit, I'm really dyslexic when it comes to math, in any other subject, I am a beast, but in mathematics, I am a total derp; always has been.

Anyway, the teacher is nice, it's actually my 12th grade statistics teacher (how'd he get there!) and that's mainly the reason why I switched the class time, because I recognized the teacher name and was like "OHHH IM GONNA PASS!!" because he's one of those teachers that explains things clearly. I'm afraid to find out what the others will be like.

So far everything seems ok. The commute is really difficult, especially since the class starts at 6:30pm and it's rush hour for people coming from the city, and it's hell for someone with their first car, but the ride back is a bit easier because the class ends at night. The campus is really crowded, like there is never a dull moment at all, and I guess that if I had gotten housing I would've been closer to people, but I find it extremely hard to bond with people at this point, I mean some people are just "hi, my name is..." but I've never been like that, I've had my guard up since the 6th grade, so I really don't think that my dreams of having friends are gonna come true..at all LOL.

But I just gotta give it another chance; it wasn't bad, but it didn't feel like school or anything. We'll see.

Mecca Of Crazy Dreams: Icarus

You know how they say God or your subconscious sends you messages in your sleep? Well this dream really made me think.

This dream starts out as a 1970's movie starring Bill Cosby. Bill Cosby played a track star, who everyone loved and admired, until one day he broke his leg, forcing him to not be able to run anymore. He sat and loathed for days and days, and instead of trying, he gave up on himself. One day, out of his newfound boredom, he created a pair of wings, and decided to try and fly across the river to the other side of the city. At first he keeps crashing into the river, but then he gets support from the local community, and he keeps trying, eventually suceeding in flying and taking off across the river.

Then the dream switches to present day, and it was more like a remake, only this time, the lead character was female, and instead of being a track star, she decided to give up on life because she felt like she wasn't good enough, so inspired by the movie, she decides to make a pair of wings and fly across the river to the other side of the city. At first she keeps falling in the river, but once her family finds out what she's doing, they support her and she decides to keep trying to fly. One day, she sees a few people by the river hanging out, and decides to show off her new skills, at first she stumbles, but she succeeds in taking off in flight..across the river.


Now, I know this dream has something to do with what I said the other night. I proclaimed that this time if school didn't work out, I was giving up. I am really sick of trying and never getting anywhere, not knowing what to do. My family tells me not to give up, but honestly sometimes, not to sound loathe-y or anything but I have really run out of reasons to go on.

Quick Update.

This is a quick update of whats been going on lately.

Box Braids

After trying to figure out WTF to do with my damaged hair, I decided to just grow it back out while getting protective hairstyles. I was gonna get more chopped off, but that would've made the situation worse, then I decided to get a weave, but it would either look cheap or I couldn't put it in a bun, so I was either going to get micro or tree braids, which would've taken my entire hairline out. After much self-convincing and browsing on Google, I decided to get box braids because they were different. At first I thought they were ugly and too reminiscent of Janet Jackson's hair in Poetic Justice, but once I got them I got SOOO many more complements on my hair than before, and I think they are just tres belle ^ ^!

College

...Is pissing me off. School starts August 20th and I was almost prepared until they caught on to my 'I'll just take 2 classes since I have to work and everything will be ok!" scheme, because now I have to take 4 in order for my financial aid to fall through.

Job

OH THE BALLSACK THAT IS WORKING RETAIL. 

and not just retail, a major retail chain that is very popular. When it's not the customers that hate me, it's upper management being dickheads and not having faith in me, and before today we were shortstaffed, but our manager has managed to hire 3 more people so horrah.

Thumb

It seems like whenever I'm stressed out that's when I get hurt. On Tuesday I was walking into my job half asleep when I closed my car door on my thumb, and not just slammed my door on it, it closed and latched on my finger! I quickly examined my thumb and saw the blood rushing out of my finger all over both hands. Fortunately for me, I work next to a clinic, so I quickly rushed inside to get bandaged up, then get seen by the doctor, because I was in so much pain that I needed to make sure everything was ok (and to see if I needed to get any meds). So he decided to work on it. I received several Novocaine shots just to numb the pain as he drained the blood from under my fingernail which I cracked sideways BTW, and afterwards I couldn't work for 2 days because of the thumb pain and I cant really do much with my right hand. Now I know how it must have felt to be amputated in the 19th century with no anesthesia or anything.

Outlets

Because of my off the wall stress level, I need a hobby or at least a creative outlet to keep my mind occupied, so I have decided to re-install the sims 2 and have decided to make stories out of them. They will be uploaded onto my other blog that I made especially for these sims 2 stories called Pointless Stories

oh COME ON!

I am the most indecisive person on the face of the planet...but I have learned my lesson, from now on, since I am incapable of making good decisions on my own, I will just ask someone, or get a quote or reference or something.

My hair sucks. A few months ago..repeat: MONTHS AGO..I had gotten a Frankie Sanford style haircut. When I had gotten the haircut, I was all proud and it felt good to have short hair. A week later I realized that the haircut I had gotten didn't resemble the Frankie Sanford haircut that I had wanted, it more resemble the Skrillex haircut :S

So I kinda edited it, fast forward to now and it looks more like the haircut I wanted, but this time it looked like Victoria Beckham's old haircut, and when I keep it up, it actually looks like the original Frankie Sanford haircut I wanted.

Here's the problem. I really really really don't feel feminine at all now. I try to do whatever I can to make my hair look pretty but it doesn't. I used to dress like a tomboy sometimes, but at least I had nice, girl hair to back it up, and now I don't, I'd rather wear a hat everywhere than go out in public looking like this, and because I don't really like styling my hair, it looks like my haircut is a botched job..which it is because I did it, but you can't really TELL.

And the icing on the cake is.....it's been what, 4 months? my hair isn't growing back.

I'm not sure if it is a result of my failure to retain my hairstyle or my severely split ends or what, but sheesh, there is literally no record progress of my hair growing. Even when my hair was longer, it never really grew down, it grew out, and when it did grow down it just grew at an extremely slow pace. I can remember why I got my hair cut in the first place: it felt liberating, low maintenance, and kept me cooler in the hot Georgia weather, but so far all I've had is a hard time, evil stares from my grandmother, and plummeting self-esteem. I have learned my lesson, and my lesson is that all hairstyles are not fit for most people, if it looks good on them, it most likely probably definitely wont look good on me. I'm not sure what to do right now, but I have learned my lesson, and once my hair grows back..pshh if it EVER grows back, I will never get it cut again.

I'm Boycotting MTV. RANT ALERT

This just in; I am boycotting MTV, but instead of making picket signs and singing inspirational songs, I will just not watch it anymore (with the exception of True Life and That 70's Show).

This vendetta I have with MTV is personal, and should not be taken seriously, but this is just my view on why MTV sucks.

People say "oh..MTV is supposed to be music television, but there's no music". True, I mean that's like going to Chik-Fil-A and getting served all seafood items instead of chicken; I'm pretty sure it wouldn't hurt MTV to bring back a music show. They said that the main reason TRL was cancelled was because the verizon store, which was below the TRL studio, was a music store, and now since people are just getting music offline, the music store slowly but surely lost business, and that, in turn, caused the audience of TRL to slowly decrease.

NO.

If I remember correctly, TRL kept changing their time-slots. When I was younger, TRL was on every afternoon. By the time I got to middle school, the airing of TRL would be so early that all of my friends wouldn't be able to watch it. I'm guessing that the reason that TRL kept playing musical chairs with its timeslots is either because A) budget issues or B) to make way for more popular, crappy programming. I understand that music videos are still being played during 3rd shift, but who is really awake at that time besides me and a few other insomniacs, but we aren't watching music videos, we're either on the internet, watching pron, or both (I'll take on the internetz, for $500 Alex!). Now, I DO remember being a few shows that popped up here and there about music, the recent one being Hip Hop POV, but that show has 2 of the worst things a show could have: poor promotion and a poor time-slot. MTV2 is a terrible excuse for a channel BTW, it's basically MTV's excess waste runoff channel, it's the Roman sewer of television. Whats even worse is that it's the only place that shows music vids from years ago, as if anyone is gonna turn 250+ channels just to see old videos and Wild-N'-Out reruns.

Which brings me to my next subject. The VMAs. The VMAs were my favorite music awards show that I watched religiously every year..until 2010. I used to like the VMAs because they were cool, and spunky, and something ALWAYS happened every year, but it's gotten so predictable that you don't even need to look at re-caps to know what happened: Lady Gaga performs, Lady Gaga wins, Beyonce wins again and again and again, Katy Perry performs an upcoming single off of her album, Kanye West is snubbed, but due to tighter security and the fact that he's most likely on someone's song, it's ok. A random band performs, someone is flying over the audience on a tightrope, 2 girls kiss, obvious camera pan of audience. 

Don't get me wrong, it's OK to watch the VMAs, it's just that they have slowly morphed into every other awards show, and I don't want to watch it anymore.

Which brings me to SHOWS..ah this is the REAL reason why I don't want to watch MTV anymore. I'm guessing that this whole reality show ordeal started in the late 80's/early 90's, and I get the intent; these shows were aimed at it's target audience of teens and young adults, but that was BAMF generation X! everything they did on the real world was so controversal back then because it was new, but now we've got crappy reality shows that aren't important. What is the point of 16 and pregnant? I feel so bad for these girls..NOT, it's kinda embarassing if you ask me, imagine if your child was pregnant on TV for the nation to see and then everyone questioned your parenting skills. Teen Mom then takes a few of these 16 and pregnant girls and portray them as woe is me damsels in distress, but that's what happens people, you can ask any of the people I graduated high school with, they'll tell you. 

And then there is the train wreck that is Jersey Shore. When Jersey Shore first premiered, I LOVED that show, I mean it was so different because I had never really been aware of that guido/guidette lifestyle besides a few trips around wikipedia and a few EPs of True Life. It was RAW when it first came out. Fast forward to today, the cast members have made so much money off of this show (PSSSHH what financial crisis???) and have gotten so famous that whenever they go to the Jersey Shore they have more security protection than the president. I thought the whole format of reality shows were to change the cast every year, why are we still watching the same people? They're RICH FFS, hire another unknown cast and watch them fight, and now that we've gotten so many Jersey shows it's damn near bad stereotyping. The spin-offs are what really facepalm me, like Snooki & JWOWW. Instead of living with her fiance and the two preparing for Snooki's baby, she moves in with JWoww for a few months and things happen, and I even heard that Snooki will be returing to Jersey Shore? Can you say DEFAX?

I'm not gonna take shots at The Pauly D project, as boring as it is, it's the closest thing to a music show on TV, with Pauly being a DJ and such.

Alright, gloves off, who is the fucker at MTV that came up with these shows? One show I really hate is Awkward. If you're gonna have a show about someone being awkward, make them awkward, this chick in the show is pulling major tail all the way around, so the show SHOULD in fact be called Normal. Then there's I Just Want My Pants Back, which is basically a documentary on hipster living. Ridiculousness which is one of the most unnecessary shows on the face of the Earth. My life as an 80's movie ripoff Teen Wolf..I can't even...And the hard times of RJ Berger, which looks like it takes place in the same universe as Awkward, is OK, but they took the main situation of the show, which was RJ being a nerd with a large penis, and pratically ran the hell out of it's course, so now they have to find more things to happen to keep people interested.

MTV knows that these shows are bad, too. In addition to this self-realization, MTV has pissed me off in the WORST way of them all...taking my favorite shows that no one in my life know about, and remaking them! Skins...which thankfully was cancelled, was a travesty of recycled plotlines from the original British Skins show, and MTV really has done it, they are re-making The Inbetweeners! NOOOOOO WTF?! Why? that is one of my favorite UK shows, and I am without a doubt knowing that MTV will fuck it up badly.

I don't mean to offend anyone who loves MTV and all of it's, MTVness, but to put it lightly..it's full of shit, and what makes it worse it that they know they suck too; they try to redeem themselves but it always fails, and it ends up being a really crapshit tv show with only one or two seasons. Earlier this week, they decided for some reason, to air a Daria marathon, because they knew that they were sucking, so someone at headquarters went "we need our gen-x'er back!"..nice try MTV, even though I'm not a gen-x'er, I DO know what Daria is, and I have the box set DVD, so you, my friend, have failed. For future references, let TLC have the reality shows, let TeenNick and ABC family have their teenage wasteland programming, and bring back some actual musical television during reasonable hours so that people wont have to always rely on crappy internet stream to see their favorite artists and music videos. I want my MTV back!

Nero: Welcome Reality

In the year 2808...darkness looms over Earth as worlds collide...two humans make a discovery that will ignite the war between the oppressed and the superior, and change the world forever......

I gotta say, that this is the first album that I actually downloaded each track, and loved it so much that I supported Nero and BOUGHT it.

Apparently this is a concept album. A concept album is meant to tell a story, or set in some sort of theme. Nero's Welcome Reality album is supposed to be based off of their love for apocalyptic films or something like that. Either way, this album is meant to make the listener feel as if they are watching a movie in their heads.

Well,  mission accomplished. This is the first album that I've ever been able to close my eyes and listen to every track in order and come up with a story. To me, this story would be based in a dystopic society in the future, kind of like Akira, or any of those anime films that came out in the 80's.  This album doesn't just have one sound, it has dubstep, it has house, drum n bass, electronic, ambient..etc.

Every song seems to have some sort of message, like Choices, which explains how humans are destroying the world that they live in by the result of the choices they make, and some songs sound like something that should be played in a futuristic space ship chase scene, like Me & You, or Must Be The Feeling.

Recommended for: anime lovers, sci-fi geeks who watch movies with explosions and robots and anything directed by Michael Bays or M. Knight Shamaylan.

College Orientation

So friday, I actually put my procrastinations aside and went to my college orientation. Again, it was required for all incoming freshmen because it was also our registration.

I had been having sleeping problems. I had went to bed at 10pm, and woke up in the middle of the night at 1am. So at 6:15 I left the house and continued to the long journey that would be my future college.

Since it was 6:15 in the morning and I was heading north of the city, the traffic was at a minimum. The morning was fairly calm, I signed in, went to the auditorium and sat as I waited for further instruction.

We were divided into 3 groups: Incoming freshmen, transfer students, and students 25 and over. I was stuck with the straight outta high school freshmen. The reason why I had put so much emphasis on going to school was because I needed to be around more people my age, however, since I was very sleepy during this orientation, that was not my intent this time. I was stuck with an obnoxious group of teenagers that I hadn't seen since the incoming freshmen in high school. We had to mingle and get to know each other and that's not my biggest specialty, so I just didn't do it.

The whole reason we were supposed to be there from 7:30 am to 6:00 pm, was because we were on a schedule, yet none of the professors wanted to be there until 6pm, so basically we sat there watching videos of college safety for an hour, went to "lunch" which was just cold sandwiches, came back to our group room and sat for an hour and a half, played a game, then watched another college safety video, played another game (I didn't even bother), and then it was time to register for classes. Since there have already been at least, 6 weeks worth of students who had registered before us, we kind of got the short end of the stick with the classes, so we were told to pick what we could, then change it once drop/add begins. Drop/Add is basically when the class avaliblity shifts and people start switching classes.

Since I have to work, I only have 2 classes (and those were the only one I could choose), these classes are

• world religion: Monday, weds, fri, 9:00-9:50 am

ok, not bad, but this is what I need to change:

• mathmatics: Weds 6:30-10pm

I kinda need classes closer together dontcha think?

Overall, it was ok I guess. There was this one guy in our group who graduated high school a year before me and was an incoming freshman, so I didn't feel too bad, because, like me, his real-life priorities got in the way of continuing his education. So there you have it, instead of 7:30-6, it was more like 7:30-4pm.

Being A Girl Gamer.

I'm just curious. When did girl gamers become a heated topic of controversy?

Seriously, google "girl gamers" and you'll see a bunch of stuff come up about why it's controversal and then you'll see pics of naked chicks with controllers and a caption that says "girl gamer". But what does being a girl gamer REALLY mean?

When I was little, I practically grew up around video games. First we had a computer, then we had a super Nintendo that my older sisters played ALL the time, and then when the playstation first came out, I was fascinated by it's open worldness and freedom. In elementary school, I enjoyed playing the little computer games when they had nothing else for us to do, and when the sims came out, I HAD to have a computer, even if it means not eating a full dinner for a few weeks. Now, I know that some girl gamers are quick to say that they've always hung out with the guys and never played dolls, I had a better relationship with guys in school, but outside of school I had female friends, and we didn't play dolls (I have always been scared of dolls) we played with our build-a-bears. But eventually I because the social outcast, and no one wanted to hang out with me, all of my sisters had grown up and moved out, so it's always been me and a kick ass video game. Video games have always been my best friend.

But some of us "girl gamers" just downright infuriate me. There are 2 1/2 types that annoy me.

The first one is the attention whore FPS player. This chick ONLY plays Call of duty and/or Halo and the only reason she plays them is because she wants to seem like the relatable-datable chick that all the guys want. These are the girl gamers that I used to experience in school, but that's because I went to a school full of sluts. I can't even begin to explain how many times I have been in a group conversation about video games where the only other girl is going on and on about Call of duty. And she never says anything other than "oh I play call of duty!" like that's the only video game to ever exist on Earth, and she doesn't say it because she really wants to talk about it, she just wants every guy in the group to have an epiphany and think "GASP! That's my dream girl" but no, honey. This chick knows nothing else about video games. This is the girl who you see pics of online with some lingerie holding a controller. Note: the quickest way to call this girl out on her BS is to throw questions about the game in her face: " what's your highest kill streak? what weapon do you use the most? do you use any cheats?" and if they somehow manage to answer those questions, then ask them this:

"what other games do you like to play?"

The second "girl gamer" that annoys me is the one that likes to say every five minutes how much of a tomboy she is and how she's never played with dolls and blah blah blah.. I understand how gender stereotypes are sometimes still in 50's housewife and we DO have to state our place in the gaming world from time to time. For an example, when I used to live in a small town in Arizona, the employees at the gamestop practically KNEW me and everything, but once I moved back to Atlanta, no matter how many times I go into the gamestop near my house they still assume that I'm shopping for some imaginary boyfriend or imaginary little brother instead of myself. These stereotypes are alive and well, but the stereotype of the badass girl gamer annoys me even worse. Sweetie, we are aware that you like boy things, but you don't need to piss on every single tree; seriously, every single forum, every single youtube video about video games, every single live podcast, there is a bunch of girl gamers reciting what seems to be some sort of creed:

I never played with dolls when I was little

I have more male friends than female friends

I like doing things that boys do

and I am a girl.

Congratulations. However, I WOULD be contradicting myself if I didn't say I wasn't guilty of this (I just stated like, half of it in the first paragraph) but it's like spam and it's irritating, it's just another way some girl gamers make us look bad. 

Another type of "girl gamer" that has the potential to annoy me is the anime freak. Back in the sailor moon - namco - konami - pokemon days of my childhood I loved anime, but if you ask me a question about which character from Total Blade Power I liked the most, Ranuke or Ishuamuki, you wont really get a response out of me. There is nothing wrong with loving anime, it is fucking hilarious and a lot of it is cool, but I guess since a lot of the makers of video games are Japanese it is assumed that I'm supposed to religiously know the name of all anime series ever to exist. Plus I kinda grew out of my anime phase a while ago. 

Disclaimer: girl gamers are indeed, awesome people, and while we are the minority of the gaming world, there are some people who hear the words "female gamer" and roll their eyes, because there are "US" who enjoy games because it's always been a part of who we are and sometimes it's a world we can escape to when the real world gets too tough to deal with, but because it IS a modern trend, some people just want to hop on the bandwagon and go "oh yeah I like video games too" but no, I LOVE video games, I love how it takes me to another world, I love how I can accomplish more in a game than I can in real life, and I love it so much that I am going to school for video game development. For me it's not just a thing, It's all I have ever really had. 

And for the record, there is nothing wrong with playing FPS games, after all, they are "games" but real gamers play all type of games, regardless of the nature or genre, however, I don't really care for FPS; they lack story depth and if I wanted to play a game where I am in the military, I would've just joined the military FFS. I used to play FPS back in 2004. And I have played COD: hated it. That's for the stereotypes.

BTW check out the article The Different Type Of Girl Gamers by ComicalDisaster. And this clip from family guy about girl gamers. Sad but true:

Mecca Of Crazy Dreams: Back to back

I keep having these weird dreams:

One night last week I had a dream about Thor X Skyrim. I had to get Thor's hammer to summon the lightning and kill a very powerful dragon. This dream is probably because I keep playing Skyrim and it was storming that night.

Then a few nights ago I had a dream about the revolutionary war:
the weirdest thing about this dream was that it wouldn't continue unless I imagined what would happen next, like writing a book
In the dream, there was this boy who witnessed the death of his parents at the hands of redcoat soldiers. He then decided to fight the battle himself. The little boy ran into a camp of redcoats and was severely outnumbered, but an old man came to his rescue. The little boy asked the old man what his purpose was for also fighting the war himself, and it changed to a flashback sequence.

This old man used to be the owner of a very large and proud plantation. His wife had a child, but the child was stillborn. They eventually bought a little slave toddler and named him Prometheus. Since the man and his wife had no children of their own, they raised Prometheus like he was their own child. Years later, the wife died and it was just the man and Prometheus together like father and son, but the other slaves did not approve of this relationship, so one day they barged into the man's home and threatened to revolt, starting by killing off the man. The man cried for Prometheus to come and save him, but one of the slaves went "Prometheus isn't here for you, now!" which devastated the man, letting the slaves burn down his house while he was still inside. After he came to consciousness, he questioned God why he spared his life in the fire, and he got up and set off to find Prometheus.
This dream probably has something to do with the fact that Assassins Creed 3 and Liberation is coming out and I'm STOKED.

Another dream I had today was about the Revolutionary war AGAIN: this time they were burying someone by a river and saying a eulogy. I have no idea.